Bye Bye 2014...

1 Year. 365 days. A Thousand Memories. A Million Screenshots. True Evolution. 

We scrambled around my Bronx apartment getting primped and prepped to bring in 2014. Jenae and I close friends came in from all over to celebrate this moment with us and I was happy or so I thought. It all hit me at once and I found myself crying in Jenae's arms. Unbeknownst to most I had many moments like this in 2014. So much happened in 2014 The high of highs and the low of lows. So why not take this time to reflect with me. 

First things first this site right here was not here a year ago. This very platform that Jaz and I created was a mere idea that we had many phone calls and doodles. When people ask me about certain things I post I can not explain just how much those kind words keep me pushing to keep it up

Looking back I can laugh at some of the down moments I had in 2014. As my family was going through so much i internalized everything. I thought I was past holding everything in but literally if I didn't go this route I don't know if I could actually process everything all at once. I was filled with a lot of guilt in 2014. For a long time I felt like everyone was keeping an eye on me just waiting for this epic breakdown moment to happen. It definitely did in my cubicle at work and many nights in bed I sobbed overwhelmed with emotion. I would go into work looking like the picture on the left and by the end of the day look like the picture on the right. I am sharing this with you all so that you can see that everyone might look happy on the surface but we all have our own internal battles. We all dealt with something this year  that has made us stronger.

PAUSE-I know you're thinking what the hell did you go through. Is your family okay.

Answer-My family is finally returning to normal. We went through the unthinkable but WE pushed through. 

On a brighter note my hair grew Shout out to the mane choice and my stylist KimberKinks!

Don't be a hater growth is growth my baby lol

A huge milestone this year was entering the Bad Boy World. Two years ago I came to NY with a dollar and dream and now I'm working with legit living legends and those who are next in line. I am sooooooooo thankful and have the utmost gratitude for all those pictured above. The last four months of this year has been nothing but pure joy. 

I laughed

I cried

I learned to love again

I pushed myself

I went through another great depression on Le Couche

I went out on many school nights

I became a better sister, daughter, friend, mentor, lifestyologist

But most of all I PUSHED through

I have no idea what this year has in store. I have no idea the joy nor the pain i may experience. I do however know that 2014 has allowed me to obtain a mindset that will help me embrace what is coming my way.

I don't know who may read this but I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for supporting me. As much as you believe in me I believe in you.

Xoxo Kolleh