Wild Wild West

The very night I got back from DR. I had to pack up all of my life and prepare for the movers that were coming at 8am sharp. I was still in shock about this move. I absolutely could not believe that is was actually happening. GOD LA was never in my plans. I thought I was taking my talents back to Detroit not millions of miles away -SIGH-

Sometimes god uses you to help others. That’s the only explanation that I can compose for this move. For the last 2 ½ years he has placed people along my path as stepping stones and now the role is now reversed. I can’t begin to explain how sick with confusion this move bestowed upon me.  I was beginning to fall in love with New York. I was beginning to grasp my footing and pick up my stride. When this opportunity was presented to me it was truly an outter body experience. The go getter Tomeka jumped on the opportunity but my soul, my inner most beings shrudder at the thought of starting over. Going to another unmarked territory frightened me.

I am not as strong as most people make me out to be. Dee is the only one who sees how these risks that I take truly affect me. My normal cheerful self has mood swings at the drop of a dime. I get an attitude out of nowhere that is beyond a force to reckon with. I still haven’t learned to let go the reigns of my life. To let go of my comfort zone and trust god. I got comfortable and lost my faith in him because he let me have a moment of control. I forgot all that he has done for me in these last two years.

I do not mean to preach out all but when people ask me of this journey that I am on and how I got to this point it’s all by the grace of god. I joke all the time and say let me great but then in return stand in my own way.

I have no clue what this leg of my journey will entail I have no clue why I have been seprated from my close friends and family but what I do know that I am grateful . I had the time to take a step back and cach myself into seeing the bigger picture. Seeing that the friendships that made in NY are lifelong and they aren’t based on close proximity. I truly believe that God had me trail Jenae to be her backbone just as she was mine in NY. I see the change in her. I see that her spirit has now been ignited and she wants her dream as bad as her mother’s next breathe.

I am embracing this journey and taking it day by day. LA was in the cards for me so now I must play the very hand I have been dealt.


To all those who are curious-
My boss was selected to come on to a special project for Mr.Combs and asked me to move to LA with her and assist on the project. I am now an Associate of the Chairmans Office for Sean Combs Enterprises.  I am one step closer to what I am not entirely sure....